On a couple of recent occasions, the thoughts/issues that I was wrestling with lent themselves to sending an email to someone to express my thoughts on a subject. In each case, I felt that the person I was emailing wanted to know, or needed to know, or would benefit from knowing my thoughts. In those cases, I felt better after sending the email. It's not that I completely stopped thinking about the issue, but I felt that my mind could rest from the subject at that point. The obsessive nature of the thinking subsided.
My catharsis in writing down my thoughts made me think of the lines to a song - Breathe by Anna Nalick:
Two AM and I'm still awake, writing a songNow I'm no poet or lyricist, but I do feel that getting my ideas carefully thought out and arranged in writing is helpful. In many cases, however, there isn't necessarily an individual that I can, or want to, email about the topic on my mind, so I'm thinking that I will try do that here on this blog. I haven't blogged regularly in long time, and I still may not do it regularly, but I think it's worth giving it a try. I could just write my thoughts in a journal or diary, but I think there is also value in the knowledge that I am sharing my thoughts with someone else. Even if no one actually comes across them and reads them, they are out there. Maybe that matters somehow.
If I get it all down on paper, its no longer
Inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to
I have to be aware also of what Anna Nalick goes on share in the next few lines of the song:
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowdI know that sometimes people will come along and take offense at the things that are said on the internet, but I suppose that is the risk that I'm taking. And, it's my blog, so if the comments get annoying, I can always disable them for an individual post (as has only happened once).
'Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to